Zoom...! Goes my car, up the road, pass the traffic light, a slight bend in the road, then another traffic light, up a bridge, down the same bridge, pass another traffic light, more bends in the road and on to the freeway...
Try saying all of that in one breath... phew!
Some people say I drive fast, and admittedly, I do, on occasion. It's normally when I am tired and want to get home as quickly as possible. Perhaps not the wisest thing to do, considering the alarming statistics of road accidents. However, there's a certain thrill and adrenaline rush, going at high speed and in and out of lanes. It's not like I drive a sports car or something (I wish!), but still...
Things have been moving and changing very fast these days, and sometimes I am gasping for breath. It is as if I'm running before I can even learn to walk. Along with the fast pace, unfortunately, comes impatience, anxiety and much stress. These days, when time is wasted or things don't happen as planned, I feel frustrated. A far cry for a half phlegmatic and patient person that I am supposed to be. Maybe it's time to take a deep breath, and go at a more regular pace, slow down.
This probably explains my constant tiredness and lack of energy these days. I suppose if you keep running, you will soon feel tired. Sometimes I can't keep up with the changes, and feel like a drowning person, getting lost in an ocean of mind boggling muddles and uncertainties, sinking deeper and deeper...
Try saying all of that in one breath... phew!
Some people say I drive fast, and admittedly, I do, on occasion. It's normally when I am tired and want to get home as quickly as possible. Perhaps not the wisest thing to do, considering the alarming statistics of road accidents. However, there's a certain thrill and adrenaline rush, going at high speed and in and out of lanes. It's not like I drive a sports car or something (I wish!), but still...
Things have been moving and changing very fast these days, and sometimes I am gasping for breath. It is as if I'm running before I can even learn to walk. Along with the fast pace, unfortunately, comes impatience, anxiety and much stress. These days, when time is wasted or things don't happen as planned, I feel frustrated. A far cry for a half phlegmatic and patient person that I am supposed to be. Maybe it's time to take a deep breath, and go at a more regular pace, slow down.
This probably explains my constant tiredness and lack of energy these days. I suppose if you keep running, you will soon feel tired. Sometimes I can't keep up with the changes, and feel like a drowning person, getting lost in an ocean of mind boggling muddles and uncertainties, sinking deeper and deeper...
Everyday I ask God for wisdom, favour and strength to face the day. Some days I manage to solve some "mysteries"; others, things just go awry. In the bigger scheme of things, I ask myself, "what's the worst that can happen?" Perspective then becomes a little clearer. Honestly, I don't really know why God has placed me where I am at -- it's one big mystery, doing things that I'd not expected or wanted to do in the first place. I am tempted to give up, and yet I have decided to give it a try -- I don't want to run away from things just because it is difficult. At the very least, I'd know that I have tried. Hopefully, I will not fall flat on my face. But if I do, I remember the words of a famous jazz piece that encourages me:
Nothing's impossible I have found
For when my chin is on the ground
I pick myself up, dust myself off, start all over again
Don't lose your confidence if you slip
Be grateful for a pleasant trip
And pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again
Work like a soul inspired
Till the battle of the day is won
You may be sick and tired
You may be sick and tired
But you'll be a man my son
Don't you remember the famous men
Who had to fall to rise again?
They picked themselves up, dust themselves off and started all over again
Right... tomorrow is a new day, with a chance to start over...
Good night, world (yawn!).
They picked themselves up, dust themselves off and started all over again
Right... tomorrow is a new day, with a chance to start over...
Good night, world (yawn!).
1 comment:
Hey Anna,
It's been a while since I visited. Just wanted to say hang in there. Funny, I drive fast too when I'm tired especially with a clear conscience that it's rather dangerous! Think this is a year of many challenges for loads of people. Even more so than before. Perhaps God in His love is really helping us all to be stronger. Take heart that it'll not be beyond us, and He's not put us into a place where we're doomed. On the contrary, He's teaching us how to rely on Him more and more and to see Him 'step in' when we're at wit's end. Hmm...I'm telling that to myself too :P. I actually feel pangs of 'panic' in the mornings when I wake up, especially Mondays...
one thing's good though, I know I can't survive without God's wisdom and grace everyday!!! Hmm, perhaps we're in a fast car ourselves and Jesus is navigating it at a high speed this year. Hang in there. Carrie Underwood sang this song - "Jesus take the wheels" please!
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